Feeling Uncomfortable

I am now attending a trilogy of personal transformation and enlightenment courses called “Living By Conscious Design”. The trilogy consists of The Awakening (2 days), The Clearing (3 days) and The Connection (3 days). Today is Day Two of the Clearing.

For much of yesterday I found myself feeling VERY uncomfortable. I had an experience very early in the morning that was hurtful to me. My reaction to it was, why in the world is this turning up on the very day I have a course to attend and participate in? For much of yesterday I found myself feeling VERY uncomfortable. The main topic was our emotions. I first noticed my physical state – I was restless, I was fidgety, I couldn’t get comfortable in my seat, my neck hurt, my lower back ached, my eyes burned, I had trouble concentrating and so on. Now part of that I put down to my abstention from coffee during the day – I had my usual early morning cup and normally I would have imbibed at least another 3 or 4. So, the easy explanation was that I was experiencing caffeine withdrawal.

The real explanation was that my emotions, my feelings were surfacing. My true response to the situation I faced early in the morning was coming out. I had to remove my mask of “Marguerite is a conscious, aware woman in control of her life” to allow and to be with my feelings of anger, betrayal and disappointment. And I felt uncomfortable and it wasn’t nice.

But then magic started to happen. Once I recognized the feelings of discomfort and accepted that it was OK, my body started to release its tension, my shoulders fell, my neck felt freer. I felt lighter. It occurred to me that normally when I feel uncomfortable, I immediately take steps to relieve the discomfort. This only provides temporary relief however and I am soon back in feelings of discomfort again. My greater insight came this morning – that feeling uncomfortable is a good thing as it indicates that a shift is occurring. That situation yesterday morning was tailormade for me to grow. It was a gift to me. It turned up exactly on that day so that I could REALLY learn the lesson. And my feelings of discomfort indicated that I was ready to learn. Relieving or trying to placate the discomfort would have hindered my growth!

WOW! So, that implies that I am to welcome discomfort IF I want to grow! It is so when I am training for a marathon, and it is so when I am training for my life! Unpleasant situations turn up in our lives as opportunities for us to grow. Our signal is the shfit in our feelings, which manifests as feeling uncomfortable. From now on, I will be comfortable with feeling uncomfortable!